Sweetness of Bitterness

Chapter 5: The Song of the Queen

"Quick! Run as fast as you can!” a small voice echoed somewhere in tremendous space. A woman wearing yellow dress and eye glasses but wearing a red cap is trying to get me. I do not know her intentions and the reason why she keeps on chasing after me, all I know is I don’t want to see her ugly and scary face by turning my head on my back. After a long time of avoiding her presence, I feel that my heart beats in tremble and my brain scattered into pieces. No matter how I try to dodge and escape from her, she still can track my way and get on me behind. I am so tired running and thinking how to end this race I am in.  I am even using only one foot just for me not to be caught by this scary woman who is after my life.

Until I suddenly feel that there is a heavy force collided on my face. It was my mom trying to wake me up. My face is wet and and my eyes are tearful. I feel relieved to know that it was just only a dream so I take a deep breath and try to relax  and calm myself. It is too early and still dark but I should prepare my things in school. So, I pick my notebooks on the floor and put them inside my bag. I take a bath, dry my body with a towel, and wear my crumpled uniform. I comb my hair while looking in front of the mirror but the man inside of it seems uncomfortable to look at and it is such uneasy feeling to stare even longer in his eyes.  

Things are all settled. Well, I think, everything is already settled. As I pass through the door, I see the dark sky which makes the whole place terrible but it never shakes me in fear; while in fact, I enjoyed walking alone in the street. I feel free of being alone where no one can tell anything against me and where I can only hear the sound of unlimited silence of darkness.

While walking on my way to school , I peer on the cloudy sky. A little while, the clouds move aside and give way to their queen. The queen shows her astonishing gown that lightens up the whole place and reveals the hidden city. Even then, I am amazed to her beauty, so in gladness I sing,

 "Oh, hail the queen!

Your beauty never fades.

You are still the queen of the ages and generation to generation

still acknowledges you.

Even if no one will tell about you, we, your people,

will still recognize you because

 your name is written in our hearts.

I am always in wonder every time

I look at you,

I am satisfied every time I see you.

I feel that I am alone with someone.

I always hear your whisper on the breezing air,

and through you I can clearly see my way with your lambency.

 

 As I sing at the middle of the dark path of loneliness and sadness, the queen replied with its beautiful gleam,

“My child, my child, oh my dearest child,

I always think of you every night.

Though you see me at a far distance, remember that I am still here to give you light,

When darkness came, do not be afraid, this only means that

My light shines even brighter at times where you walk in the valley of the shadows. 

I am not the one who shows the beauty of the night but it is the King from far behind who is the source of everything I have in might."