Sweetness of Bitterness

Chapter 3: Unstoppable Pain

I got beaten by my mother each day. I do not know the reason why she treated me this way. Why is she doing this to me? What did I do wrong? If I only had a chance to record all these things and chance to make her watch the video, maybe somehow, she will realize everything, how cruel she is, and how desperate I am to stop her. There were times that because I am usually beaten by my mother, I stop crying. And even if how hard she tries to make me cry, I just ignore all the pain. I stare at her eyes and I have been trying to capture her soul. She was scared of me at that time because I never cry. Then she said, “You were the reason why you sister died!” An echo of consciousness came into my head and I begin again to question myself,” Is it really because of me why my sister died? Am I really a murderer?” The pain of these words my mother sprinkled upon my soul dig deep into my heart. This pain never stops and It seems that the world is laughing at me and the people are pointing their finger at me with mockery and insult, “This child is a murderer!”